Question:
What do you think is Nick's biggest fear?
KnightByrd
| Nick said it himself in "The Fire Inside" - death by fire. |
Reva
| I think Nick's biggest fear is actually achieving his goal of mortality. I think he thinks this is what he wants but I think he is somewhat content with being a vampire. If he really wanted to achieve mortality he would have tried a lot harder. For instance, he would have actually made love with Natalie in Last Knight. He knew this was the way to mortality because of Janette but he was too afraid to try. |
Beverly Turner
| I think Nick's biggest fear is that he will become like LaCroix. (Plain and simple). |
Sharon Bauman
|
I think Nick's biggest fear is that he [and/or Natalie] will find a cure for
his vampirism. It isn't an obvious fear, but there are plenty of references to
his not following Natalie's regime for beginners. If he became mortal after
living so long as a vampire, he'd have to come to terms with all his misdeeds
-- such as killing people in order to feed. While he's a vampire, it's his
necessity. Once he's a mortal, he's got no excuses. There's also the question
of whether he believes in God [and Satan] and heaven and hell. This was brought
out in the third season's "Sons of Belial" [if not before, as well]. As long as
Nick's a vampire, he can deny to himself that there's an afterlife and a place
to go. If he's mortal, he has a whole new set of conflicts that he's eluded for
800 years with which he must come to grips. And as a mortal, he would not have
the luxury of pondering these new sets of questions/conflicts at leisure. Even as a vampire, Nick learns from his experiences as a vampire and with his interactions with mortals. He tries to "do the right thing" to make up for his previous evils, such as they were. Does he really want to give this up in exchange for growing old, becoming ill perhaps, and dying? I think his actions contradict his desire for mortality. He thinks he wants to become mortal [isn't the grass always greener on the other side], but he really fears it. He won't stick with any clinical attempts Natalie comes up with; and Janette told him how she became mortal. Yet Nick won't risk it because it's dangerous to Natalie - even though Natalie is willing to take the chance for both of them. I had trouble with that for two reasons: [1] if Nick wanted to become mortal so badly he would have tried it; he's old enough to be able to control his murderous impulses -- Janette did; and [2] by not trying it, he failed to commit himself to Natalie. People who love each other [Nick & Nat - as has been alluded to many times] will take extreme risks for each other and with each other. So if Nick is mortal, he has to decide if he loves Natalie and what to do about it; and he also has a definitive time on earth left. Being mortal for Nick would also change the dynamics of his relationship to LaCroix, Vachon, Tracy, et. al. So, Nick fears becoming mortal. Better to live the life he knows than to face the unknown. |
Annette Williams
| I think Nick's biggest fear is that he may never attain mortality. |
Casey Carpenter
| I think that Nick's biggest fear is that no one will ever forgive him his sins. He has struggled the past few centuries to atone for his sins and still feels extreme angst about it. I think he fears that he will never be able to "repay society for his sins". |
Chanda Keith
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There are couple of things that I think might frighten poor Nicky tremendously.
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Kelly Green
| Sometimes I think that Nick is most afraid of succeeding in his quest for mortality. He creates a great deal of *drama* surrounding his stated desire for mortality, but subconsciously he also finds ways to undermine whatever progress he's made toward that goal, whether it be through his own actions (or inaction) or by attaching himself to those who will not let him become mortal. |
Ken Kapoor
| Losin' his hair |
Tippi
| That 'the cure' involves twenty-four straight hours of square-dancing. In a red satin dress. With fringe. |
Amanda Hardy
| Oh, that's got to be his fear of losing his last shreds of humanity and becoming... well, becoming LaCroix. He's terrified of once again losing himself to evil. |
Nik
| Nick's biggest fear is that he is more like Lacroix than he cares to admit. "You really do like me. You just don't know you do." |
Amanda Sridasome
| I think Nick's greatest fear would be to be betrayed by those whom he trusted. I noticed that Nick doesn't tell his secrets to many people, but those that he does allow to know his secrets are very special to him. I think he has always been afraid of betrayal, since it has happened to him many times before. |
LB Burstiner
| I think that deep down inside, Nick is afraid of becoming mortal. He has spent 800 years being a vampire, that the closer he gets to mortality, the more unsure he is. That's why I think it was so easy for him to backslide. |
Deb Sandine
| I think Nick's biggest fear is that there *is* no cure for vampirism, and that he will therefore never be able to redeem himself. I think Nick believes that he is too weak to permanently subdue his vampire nature -- he will always backslide. Therefore, unless he can become mortal, so that the hunger -- the urge to kill -- will subside, he is and will remain cursed. |
Judy
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I think his biggest fear is losing Natalie. Everything he does is to protect her from "the truth". He won't tell her about him, afraid that it will drive her away when she sees the "monster" that he is. Also he denies his love for her so that LaCroix will not hurt her. He thinks that he's protecting her. He has stated, at least once, that he couldn't live with himself if anything happened to her. |
CPhelps
| That the dark side of his nature will get out of hand, like it almost did in "Sons of Belial". |
Karen
|
Being mortal. As much as he thinks he wants to be mortal, I think it still
would be intimidating after 800 years to actually have the certainty if dying.
I mean, he's gone all this time nothing touches the vampire, not ebola, etc and
if he finds out Nat's cure worked, wow!! The implications are tremendous. I
think that's why he's never been that cooperative in finding a cure. He says he
wants it, but does he really?! (My husband said splinters!!) |
Jessica Roop
| I think Nick's biggest fear is to be haunted by all of those that he has killed in the last 800 years. |
Carolyn Alutius
| While I agree with the idea that Nick fears regaining his mortality, I think it could go deeper than that. I think he fears the fact that he still enjoys being a vampire. His whole abstaining from hunting humans is not a matter of not wanting to, its a matter of wanting to and not doing it. I think that's why he backslides. He's not completely ready to give up what he is, even though he knows it's wrong. |
Cyndi Knecht
| Not regaining his "humanity" - not simply his mortality. |
Pat Francoeur
| Not ever being able to become mortal again. |
Ann Mitchell
|
No question about it; Nick's greatest fear is eternal damnation. He knows that
if he dies as a vampire, he is lost; he believes that if he regains mortality,
he will still have to face Judgement. See the 2nd season ep 'NEAR DEATH'. The final scene in that ep really made me scream. He is still thinking and reacting to the teaching of the 13th century Church: everyone is born in sin and can only achieve redemption thru good works. This doctrine (sale of indulgences and all that), eventually led to the Reformation. Wake up Nick! Follow Doctor's orders; and, meanwhile, go talk to a priest. Any priest worth his collar will be happy to meet you outside of a church. |
Danielle Goldstein
| I believe Nick's greatest fear is to kill Natalie or Nat dieing. She is his hope, his love, his laughter, his joy and a source of strenghth for him. He would feel awful if she died and much worse if he killed her. |
Lucius
| I think that perhaps the thing that Nick fears the most is never being able to become or even be near a human again. |
Sheila A. Coneybeer
| Pointy sticks? Sunlight? Seriously, that in everyone there is good and evil and that each individual is responsible for which controls their life and he doesn't have the spirtual strength to 'be good' as long as he is a vampire. That's why he wants to be mortal again, because he thinks it will be easier to 'be good' without the drive to kill. Being mortal is no promise of goodness, yet Nick thinks it is. Yet, I think he is afraid to be mortal again, because it will just confirm that he is truly evil. Subconciously, he is afraid that his desire to kill, and his enjoyment of it, is more than the need to feed. Poor Nick, when will he learn there are no promises in this or any other world. |
Karen
| Part 2: I think it's interesting the majority of the answers to this weeks question is what Nick fears the most is becoming mortal. Have we all a little Lacroix floating in us? |
Karen C Smith
| Right off the top of my head -- Nick probably fears being found out (to be a vampire) by his mortal comrades because it would most likely end his quest for mortality. You know, villagers with torches, etc. since the news would probably leak out to the general public. Natalie would also be the target of hate by the fearful citizens and the life that Nick has been trying to build for himself would be completely destroyed. He would have to return to Lacroix and move on. Almost sounds like a sequel to Last Knight where the people of Toronto find out what Nick really is and then Nick, LC and Natalie (who would be brought across to save her from the angry mob) would ride off into the sunset to start anew in another time and another place. |
Marie
| Nick is scared of everything. He is scared of loving Natalie, becoming mortal, finding out there is no way to become mortal. If he does become mortal then LaCroix might bring him across again and they go on like that for years, also he is scared of admiting he likes being a vampire, and for now sunlight, crosses, and really big and sharp sticks. Oh, yeah, also when Nat has really bad PMS and causes her to have nasty moods (MBiaV for a good example of this). |
Tina Werner
| I believe that Nick's biggest fear is his reversion to craving humans again... and becoming Lacroix! |
Amanda Sullivan
| I think that everyone is pretty much right when they say Nick is afraid of obtaining his goal - mortality. Afterall, he has used this as his reason for living for the last 800 years. What would he replace it with? But I also think he has another fear. I think he is afraid that if he did come across, he wouldn't be able to live up to Nat's vision of what he would be, and that if he doesn't come across, that one day she will realize that she is wasting her time and move on. It's one thing for him to be the one leaving, but another for her to leave him. |
Theryn L. Knight
| Nick's biggest fear is that he will take too much and kill a person that he decides to drain, of course; with Natalie dead at the end of the third season, he was right. (Oh, Nick.......*she pines away in bitter agony*) |
Chris Rosmini
| I think perhaps Nick's greatest fear is that he is what he says he is, a monster, an irredeemable beast. And that he will see this reflected in the faces of everyone he cares for, if they really understand what he is. |
Liz
| Running out of things to be gulity about |
K-A
| COMMITMENT TO NATALIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Need I say more? |
Laura Wiborg
| Well my sister and I think that Nick's biggest fear is finding out that Nick is truly evil. Well that is what we think By BY now. |
Sanguisuga
| "What is Nicholas' greatest fear?" Mortality, of course. As much as he hates being a vampire, he hates the idea of Death even more. I mean, if he really wanted to end his life as a bloodsucker, a stake would just as easily end it for him. But he doesn't want to die, now does he? |
Shelley
| For all of Nick's good intentions, I still think that his biggest fear is mortality. While he is drawn to mortality, he still fears death. When Jeanette was dying he was not happy that she could finally find rest, the first thing he asked her was if he could bring her across. (case in point!) |
Jayma Kay Riley
| I agree that Nick's greatest fear is probably becoming mortal and finding out he has no excuse for his dark side. He may have acquired this fear only recently after he became a cop and saw the really bad side of human nature. Before he became a cop, the really bad people he dealt with, such as Hitler, Rasputin, etc., were outstanding people in history. Now, he sees that John Q. Public is every bit as bad as the worst historical villains. I think he realizes that his only hope of doing 'exceptional good' is to remain a vampire, with a vampire's special skills. And maybe 'excetional good' is really the only way to redeem himself. |
George Spelvin
|
I think Nick is most afraid of eternal damnation & that being most afraid
of becoming Lacroix is just another way of saying the same thing. He may also
be afraid of being mortal again but the fact that he does not immediately
follow Jeanette's recipe for mortality does not supports this contention
because: 1) The very ending of the episode in which Jeanette "becomes mortal" suggested to me that she failed & is "still floating around out there" as GWD claimed in an interview I found on the web. Nick doesn't follow her instructions because he knows it won't work. Unfortunately, I don't remember anymore exactly what led me to think she was still alive, & I don't have a tape. 2) Nick is afraid that if he follows Jeanette's instructions he simply won't be able to stop after a "little" drink. This fear is well-founded: in the last episode he drinks too much & Lacroix comments, "Ah, Nicolas, you never could stop after only a little." This is the vampire skill he never mastered. He can, I think, bring people across, certainly he offers nearly every chance he gets. He doesn't bring Natalie across at the end because he can't bear to condemn her to the very form of damnation he himself is trying to escape. Is it possible that in this final act of abnegation he saves his soul? (Warning: All of the above must be taken w/ a grain of salt because I missed almost all of the first two seasons, to my eternal regret.) |
Scarlett
| Fire. |
Jody
| I think Nick's biggest fear is that Natalie will have a huge PMS attack and stake him. After six long and dedicated years trying to find Mr. Guilt a cure she is entitled to a little fun! |
Connie
| I think his biggest fear is being left alone, that's why he brought Janette back across. |
Watcher
| To be left alone with his own kind, without a single mortal connection. That, I believe, is what a good deal of Last Knight is about. (I mean, except for Nick's love for Nat). It would mean loss of all his hopes. |
Tiffiney Petherbridge
| Nick's biggest fear has to be having Janette call him up and say, "Nick, vampires aren't sterile and you're going to be a daddy!" |
Jody Aldred
|
I think one of Nick's biggest fears is that he will never find a lasting
happiness or find someone who will never leave him. Alot of the episodes and
stories that I have come across talk of his loneliness and inability to commit
to anything whole-heartedly (a big example would be his backsliding). He has
always had his happiness taken away as a result of his vampirism or his master.
Deep down Nick has the ability to be faithful and loving companion as indicated by his 97 year relationship with Jannette when he was first brought across. She was the one who left him that first time and she had already been a vampire for 200 years (approx) before Nick came along. I believe NIck enjoys the benefits of vampirism i.e. the special powers he possesses and eternal youth, but it is this condition that has barred him from a true loving, lasting relationship with a woman. His condition gets beyond his control, drowning out his "humanity" to more basar instincts, resembling more the animalistic pleasures of the hunt and capture of prey. His vampirism has stripped him of his ability to "savor" life, hence the need to "possess" another soul to experience another's life through their blood. This is a fleeting ecstacy for the vampire and thus the need to kill again to fill the void as well as relish the control of another. All of these things has caused Nick to "put up a wall" between himslf and Natalie, neverletting himself get too close and possibly destroying everything that their relationship represents in the show. It is also the reason he does not want the "darkness" to destroy the hopes she represents to him. |
Pamela
| Nick's biggest fear is that of mortality. The haunting memories of all he has killed and fed upon will never allow him to forgive himself if he were to become mortal once again. Even Nat's love cannot overcome this part of his life. |
Richard Manly
| Nick is most afraid of not being a vampire. It's all he's known since 1228. So what if Natalie says it's the right thing to do? LaCroix is still preying on humans for their blood and he seems sanguine enough. |
Katya
| Nick's biggest fear? Actually becoming mortal. I can't imagine what would happen if he ever got what he "wanted". |
Lori Bullers
| I think Nick's biggest fear is Nat. |
Blue
| That he will never be able to be mortal again. |
